Damn son, playing guitar SUCKS FOR YOUR FINGERS, but it EXHALES (opposite of suck) for the rest of you. Fun thing, going to keep practicing basic mechonix of spider crawling the fret broad and some basic chords (power chords OFC). Now with more understanding on how guitar makes sounds that sound good, rewatching guitar cover vids/guides starts to make sense, enjoyment is increased as well. I KNOW WHAT HE IS DOING!!!! Exciting stuff hahahahha
Might not help that the guitar I bought has ULTRA THICK strings
goodbye sweet princess
(shes moved on to a new owner)
song of the day
Quick post, since theres always something standing in the way of the daily. Even right now gotta do work tasks in next 2 hours (well finish them up, close PR's) and then be off to the hospital again (reminder: grab small scissors, check car oil, buy water, refresh on vitamins, make invoice for work)
After learning basic guitar exercises its fun. Wake up, go for morning clean up, oh wait a minute GUITAR. Play few exercises, go on with the rest of things. On the way back, do it again. Why not?
Anyhows, kind of in and out of hospital these last days. Things are getting better/worse. A lot of confusions to clear up, just general taking care of things. Also trying to support my mom through it all. She isn't weak, but she gets anxious easily and anxiety triggers epilepsy in her, so its serious. Doesn't help when your husband is half dying everyday ~~
But hey things seems to be OK for now, got her a bunch of mcdonalds yesterday. Made us both feel better. It hits different for us, since of the history with this comfort food haha. The other day we got banana coffee and these delicious soft and creamy ecklers. Real good. Its nice to be able to help, even if only kind of help I know how to provide is being there, helping out with stuff and getting food shamelesslly
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Aggressive self worth. Thats what that song made me feel. Fighting for your own self worth aggressively. Thought of past come up, try to bring me down, my answer - NAHH, Fuck off. Thats just repeating the same mistakes of hurting myself with memories. You are either helping yourself feel better in the present and in the future or you are self harming. Do not believe the lies of some kind of middle ground, it doesn't exist for me
Basically just focus on the present and making it better. Do not get burried with anxieties created out of thin air that do no exist right now. Lets just live my life, be me, be good to myself and to others around. Nothing changed because of the intrusive thoughts I got, nothing. Life is exactly the same as it was, don't spoil it
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