doug on a bike, smol
I lost weight. Am basically severely underweight now.
Work as a cleaner 12+ hours a day for few months, while doing AI masterminding on crypto and polymarket whenever I have time. (Mostly just come home, and have it report to me the tests its been running or strategies it was testing)
Writing this blog since been bedridden for last week, ruined my back from working, am old and weak lmao.
For fun lets list some of the great things
GREAT:
- In time to become AI engineer and join the goldrush/future. Could find a way to breakthrough financially and freedom wise using this. (Entirely skill issue)
- am skinny now
- got welfare
- technically on a break from work due to being buck broken (Got time)
- got a close friend
- got a doug
- friends doing better, no more suicide scares everyday
SUCKS:
- Am forced to become AI engineer to make any money without destroying my body
- am distant with dog, since we barely spent any time together due to me working
- am distant with friend, since we dont spend any time together, and future shows more of the same
- painful to move, lay down etc. at the moment
- huge debts, no freedom, no money
- can only work to escape, can only work to achieve rest
- am tired
- am lonely
- friends doing better only on the surface, its really bad still, and time is ticking
- have no one to talk to
- talking wont even change anything
- ouch my back
Power...
Choosing....
Options...
Options that dont suck....
Options that excite....
Free time....
Free time thats actually fun....
Free time that doesnt make you feel guilty...
Free time that doesnt push you further away from escaping...
Not having a need to escape....
I guess thats the plan.
Grind out some iOS shit to prepare for next weeks technical interview
No matter the result:
Grind out AI engineer practical projects
Reactivate my github, be active
Keep developing AI shit, improving workflows, tools, etc.
BONUS:
Once I start to actually have at least a bit of $$$, lets do something fun.
Quick fun, fun now, actually enjoyable, something that lasts.
What? Get a motorcycle again? Probably
Get a girlfriend, get a bike, live a bit
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